This post is exactly what it means... this one is for keeps so ladies back off!!!
Two days back I wrote a post on my friends and how blessed I am with them in my life. I'm still waiting for a happy ending so I want to hear it the second it happens - do u hear me??!!! If not I will come there and whack the heck out of you guys ;-)
But this one is for you - Ben. When u fell in my lap, I was like what the heck??!! Is the universe testing me or messing with my head. I didn't understand why I couldn't have an uncomplicated single life where my mind wasn't messing with my heart. But no matter how hard I tried to push you away it worked in reverse. The more I pushed, u just seemed to slide right in. And no matter how hard I was with you or how hard I was with myself when it came to you, we just made it through it all. You reminded me how life is precious and we can make the most of it. Of coz we had ample of "help" getting it together!!! But at this point I can't thank them enough for their "help".
Of coz you had never had a relationship and I was queen of them, so us coming together was just so scary.... Even the thought of me being with you after being in a loving relationship for so long before that... God!!! It made my heart clench with fear!!! But when we clicked all this just didn't matter... it was just you and me and the way we made each other feel in such a short while. The greatest part was that you understood me and let me be the way i was, fell in love with me as i was - childish, crazy and completely erratic... u even adjusted to my mood swings which is a lot to say considering even i cant handle my mood swings at times :-)
And now when I look back at our time together, so much has changed for the better. I could never imagine seeing us the way we are, where I share my fears, my elations and everything that I feel with you (trust me I am a tough nut to crack when it comes to opening up!!!) And I cant help it coz I know it will sound so clichéd - but cant thank you enough for loving me.
Sometimes when I look back and see how mysteriously we have met and been brought together, its like a dream. But this is no dream. This is our reality and I`m wide awake and trying to make the most of it. Thank you Ben. Thank you for making me feel alive and not alone....
This one is for keeps!!!
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